What a Whack Day!!!

I am really amped about this month, but today sucks! I woke up late...which means later than I feel that I should to successfully start a homeschooling day, etc... This is a problem that I have been having lately. I really cannot make excuses about why I cannot get this "waking up earlier" thing down packed. But I cannot!!! I really believe that it would be a lot easier for me if I was at my OWN abode. But I am not and won't even go into complaining about that right now. Why? Remember the blog on "Seated in the Pit for the Blessing"????? Well, that's why!

Anyhow (not complaining), if I were in my own home and my day was just not going well, I would X-out homeschooling and spend the rest of the day reading the word, cleaning up the house, or doing anything that would help me to get myself & my surroundings back-on-track. Then, I would feel better about trying "tomorrow" off on a better foot. BUT, because I am not in my own space, and there is always someone else around all day long, I feel the ridiculous pressure of forcing a homeschool day against the grain of the teacher's and students' dispositions. And its kinda like I know that I am setting us all up for an unsuccessful, emotional, miserable school day, by forcing it, but my stupid hang-ups about what someone else (the person who's home all day) may be thinking about me or the judgements they may be making concerning my way of homeschooling, WINS OVER. Henceforth, my day becomes even more stressful and WHACK!!!

SOoooo how can I remedy this? Well, since I cannot leave this location at this current time, and know that I am not mature enough to get over what someone else may or may not be thinking, I can only conclude that getting up earlier is my only solution. Most importantly, however, I am going to have to pray, because I CANNOT get up in the mornings on a consistent basis. This sucks, but I am being honest, I CANNOT! And I can't rely on another human being in this home to wake me up. I wish that I could have someone to shake me or badger me until I just sat up and stood up, but I DON'T. I need some assistance with this issue.

But actually, today I had an issue waking up because of Joshua whining and crying throughout the night (I think it had to do with teething) and the night before I hardly got any sleep. First off, I had to stay up late listening to my husband. Then, when I finally got to sleep, I was strangely awakened by a dream at 3 and couldn't go back to sleep until 4:30. So what can I do with that? It's like I had a reason for waking up late today (a lack of sleep), but it screws me up ALL day. Now, an old, dear friend of mine has unexpectedly knocked on the door to visit. This is the first time all day that I felt relaxed and at peace. But now I must go entertain. What's up with this day!!!