So now that you briefly know who I am...let's get real. Today I got the revelation of my life!!!! I am trying to be a perfect person in all of my roles, and my inner standards of perfection are kicking my butt and stressing me out. It's not ALL of my hats that are overwhelming me...I AM overwhelming MYSELF!!! I am the one expecting myself to be perfect mom, perfect wife, perfect homeschool teacher, perfect Christian. And I am expecting ME to be the one to change myself and perfect myself. But today, I surprisingly got a revelation after two days of feeling down & stressed, and after reading a page in Joyce Meyer's The Battle Belongs to the Lord. I would have never thought it, but I finally got honest with myself and WOW!!! It is freeing to realize this, but also a little scary. I am glad that I have reached the source of my stress (ME), but now I have to begin the process of change. And this change is NOT my responsibility, it's God's. Thank God, but...
Now I have to figure out exactly how to give this issue to God and let HIM fix me. How exactly do I give him my perfection issues and "be still" while he works on me??? This will be a new one for me, but I so need the fixin'. LOL! Well, tonight, me and Abba Father will converse about it and I'm sure he will help me out with this. He's always faithful to me!
LIFE...to be continued...
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